STATE OF DISCONNECTION, 1992
STATE OF DISCONNECTION, 1992
STATE OF DISCONNECTION
THE
BUBBLE
THE TENSION GROWS
SORRY
HOUSE OF LOVE
CONSTANT COMPANION
A WONDERFUL TIME
NON
SERVIAM
QUESTION OF TIME
COMFORT OF ABSENCE
Separated from yourself you
walk a lonely path
You feel somethingīs missing deep inside
Knowing that theyīll never let you see the other half
Realityīs beginning to subside
And your sky is grey
You wake up screaming
Yet another day
In this state of disconnection
Separated, segregated
Ends thatīll never meet
Beyond all hope of being saved
Conquered and divided
Incomplete
One step closer to your grave
What once was unity is now
split up in two
All day long youīre walking in a trance
In your heart you know that there ainīt nothing you can do
The situationīs slipping through your hands
And your sky is grey
You wake up screaming
Yet another day
In this state of disconnection
Separated, segregated
Ends thatīll never meet
Beyond all hope of being saved
Conquered and divided
Incomplete
One step closer to your grave
Perishability
You had to learn it the hard way
Yesterday you could not see
How easy colours fade to grey
Flying high
As if the ground did not exist
Never even wondered why
You were helplessly heading for the mist
So your bubble bursted
World reduced to dust
The image cracked
Now youīre telling me
Youīre a victim of circumstance
How everything you touch
Turns to ashes in your hands
Hands
Hands
So your bubble bursted
World reduced to dust
The image cracked
Perishability
You sure learned it the hard way
Yesterday you could not see
There was another way
When you thought you had it made
Yeah your bubble bursted
World reduced to dust
The image cracked
The image cracked
Mother
Take this burden off my shoulders
This heavy load
Mother
Wonīt you free me from these chains around my neck
And save my soul
Canīt you see
How much my freedom means to me
The tension grows
The pressure owerflows
Mother
Canīt you see your son is choking
Wonīt you hear my plea
Mother
Hear my every cell is screaming
For liberty
Canīt you see
The overload is killing me
The tension grows
The pressure overflows
Mother
Take this burden off my shoulders
This heavy load
Mother
Canīt you see
How much my freedom means to me
The tension grows
The pressure overflows
I am just a simple man
I ainīt got no masterplan
I didn't make up the rules
Iīm like all you other fools
I never claimed to be
Immaculate or pure
Iīll take the consequences of my actions
But not yours
Donīt ask me īcause I donīt know
Life s a bitch to me too
Iīm not some God whoīll tell you
What to think and what to do
Donīt even know
Who you are
But this time you pushed me
A little bit too far
Sorry - Hell no
I wonīt plead guilty of something I didn't do
Sorry - Hell no
You made your choices
Upon yourself you bought this strife
Donīt you put the blame on me
For messing up your life
The path I walk
Is far from straight
But Iīm no excuse
For your fucked up state
Sorry - Hell no
I wonīt plead guilty of something I didnīt do
Sorry
Sorry - Hell no
I wonīt plead guilty of something I didnīt do
Sorry - Hell no
You did it to yourself so tell me something new
I get so tired of all the little games
we play
All the words when there is nothing more to say
All the waiting all the tears
All the anger all the fear
I've been trying way too hard for way
too long
And I donīt even wanna find out who is wrong
So now we know we disagree
But you canīt force your tip on me
I think Iīll try to close my eyes for a
while now
And hope for a sign from above
I donīt really think I wanna stand no trial now
In our little house of love
I would never try to hold you down
Iīm not sure I even want you around
Decisions are so hard to make
Either way our hearts will break
I think Iīll try to close my mind for a
while now
Now that push has come to shove
I donīt really think I wanna stand no trial now
In our little house of love
When walls came tumbling down
I was the one who stayed intact
The only one who could give you
All the strength you lacked
You lost some friends
Though you didn't catch their names
It donīt make no difference
ltīs the price you gotta pay
Iīm the only person you feel
comfortable around
Iīm the only one who has never let you down
You wish you could be saying this ībout someone else instead
But Iīm the little man called hate that lives inside your head
Iīm your motivation
Iīm your inspiration
Iīm the only solid ground beneath your feet
The one whoīs there to pick you up when
you are beat
Your one true friend who will always hear you cry
And Iīll stay by your side ītil the day you die
Iīm the only person you feel
comfortable around
Iīm the only one who has never let you down
You wish you could be saying this ībout someone else instead
But Iīm the little man called hate that lives inside your head
Iīm your motivation
Iīm your inspiration
Iīm your man
Iīm all you want and all you need
Iīm the everlasting energy
Thatīs running through your veins
The jealous God
Who forever rules your brain
Repeat 1st verse
Iīm your motivation
Iīm your inspiration
I canīt believe what I see
I canīt believe what my senses are telling me
My days are dragging by so slow
As I follow my own footprints in the snow
I can only hope
Itīs not real
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
I canīt believe what I hear
I canīt turn off my ears and make it disappear
Iīm moving on without control
Iīm drifting in circles in the darkness of my soul
Created just to be destroyed
Out of the fire and into the void
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
Sitting īround not knowing what to do
Lost without a clue
Disintegrated past
Going nowhere fast
Going nowhere
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
Having a wonderful time
Wish you were here
Iīll never be the things you wanted
Got a mind of my own
If you donīt like what you see
Why donīt you leave me alone
Iīm no longer willing or able
To fulfill your demands
Or play my part in your plan
The more I see the less I believe
In the things that you say
No longer will I be a piece
In some game you play
I donīt wanna see
Your truth ainīt real to me
I wonīt be caught in the web of your lies
Wonīt be trapped in your schemes
Ainīt gonna waste my time
Realizing someone elseīs dream
Iīm no longer willing or able
To fulfill your demands
Or play my part in your plan
I donīt wanna be
A puppet on your string
Ainīt gonna let you clip my wings
I donīt wanna see
Your truth ainīt real to me
Someone told me just the other day
Youīre not around anymore
Well, any asshole could have guessed
Thatīs what destiny had in store, for you
So you kicked the bucket, well what a joke
No need to wonder why
And everybodyīs saying to themselves
There was nothing I could do
We all knew
It was just a question of time
Patiently waiting
Just a question of time
The stories I heard sometimes made me laugh
Although somewhere I knew
Those things we used to joke about was slowly
Killing you
We all knew
It was just a question of time
Patiently waiting
Just a question of time
Sleep my child
My pretty one
Evil canīt touch you now
Sleep until the morning comes
And things have changed somehow
I wonīt alarm you
By telling you things turned bad
Iīll just try to keep the wolves at bay
Oh, youīre so ugly when youīre sad
And dawn is still so far away
Dream on, Starchild
Dream on, pray that time will be kind
Dream on and pretend thereīs nothing wrong
Sleep my child
My pretty one
Nothingīs gonna hurt you now
Sleep until the morning comes
And things have changed somehow
Dream on, Starchild
Dream on, pray that time will be kind
Dream on and pretend thereīs nothing wrong
Dream on, put your faith in being blind
HENKE - Vocals
INGEMAR HENNING - Guitars
KIM - Guitars
PETER ASP - Drums
SAMI MIARI - Bass
Recorded and mixed at Silence Studio, Koppom, Sweden, May-June
1992 by Rune Johansson and STILLBORN. All selections written,
arranged and performed by Henrick Karlsson, Ingemar Henning,
Kim, Peter Asp and Sami Miari. Additional musicians:
Rune Johansson-percussion. Ulf Sjölander-trumpet, saxophone.
Carl Stintzing-piano, organ. Group-photo by Karin Johansson.
Recording info: MCI 24tk (2"). Trident mixer. MCI 2tk (1").