Okay,
lets start with what people to believe a vampire to be.
Eurotrash
gentile dressed in out of date goth gear moving around in small,
remote villages in areas of Europe buying real estate in large cities.
They spend their day in a casket or coffin fearing the sun, they
are repelled by crosses or its holy origin (not if you read Anne
Rice), as well as other things
"Real Vampires"-how can this be anything but a contradiction
in terms? We all know about vampires. Stock characters of fiction,
guaranteed box-office draws, the media vampire has been familiar
to us since childhood. Generally speaking, our blood-suckers appear
with a tongue planted firmly in one toothy cheek-from Bela Lugosi
hamming it up in the 1950's, to last summer's teenage "vamp"
movies, to Count Chocula breakfast cereal, the media seldom treat
the vampire as truly fearsome. The stereotyped vampire traits are
familiar to any child: vampires have big fangs, sleep in coffins,
are instantly incinerated by sunlight, and are best dispatched by
a stake through the heart. But the most important "fact"
that we all know of course is that there are no such things.
Well
real vampires are none of the above. I have a limited conception
of what a real vampire is, but I will stick my neck out and say
that a majority of real vampires are simply people who have slightly
different perspective to the day to day activities of everyone else.
Are
real vampires undead?
No,
some will try to convince you otherwise and the answer is still
no. In fact from my studies a majority of Real Vampires get really
annoyed by the nutters who claim to be undead.
Are
there different clans?
Again
this is fictious and should only be asked at a White Wolf convention
or the like. There are several different classifications of vampires.
Of course, in terms of the mythical, literary and cinematic conventions,
we are correct: there are no "legions of the undead" stalking
the unwary. We have explained the folklore with politics, misunderstood
diseases, and hysteria, the literary and cinematic images with psychology,
history, and sociology. We of the 20th century are confident that
vampires could not really exist. But then, most of us are never
forced to think otherwise. For a number of people, the concept of
vampires becomes a critical and often lifelong concern. To live
with, love, or befriend a real vampire is to encounter a set of
problems which may demand expanding the boundaries of one's accepted
reality. To come to terms with being a real vampire oneself is to
face a lifetime's karmic challenge.
Some
people reading this article already know this. The rest are probably
thinking, "Real Vampires, give me a break! Sure, there are
some pretty weird people out there, but all they need is a good
therapist." Yes, there are people who take on all the trappings
of a gothic novel: dressing in black, claiming or pretending to
be "vampires" in the supernatural sense, wearing capes,
sleeping in boxes, even getting their teeth capped. There are more
frightening people who seek to torture or kill animals or human
beings in order to gain power, emotional release or sexual thrill,
and who sometimes call themselves (or are called) "vampires".
But most of these individuals are troubled people who have been
attracted by the cultural myths about the vampire: supernatural
powers (because they feel powerless), overwhelming sexuality (because
most of them have sexual issues and no true relationships), immortality
(because they fear aging and death). Individuals like these are
the most recent "explanation" for humanity's persistent
belief in vampires. But beyond and behind all the folklore, the
psychological theories, the role playing, even the traditional spiritual
assumptions, lies the real truth about vampires.
The
field of vampirology is complex and mysterious. There are many aspects
to the vampire phenomenon, and they would require several books
to fully explore. One aspect of vampirism which frequently troubles
magickal, spiritual and other small groups, the most common form
of vampire, is found among living people who share with us the benefits
and disadvantages of physical existence on this plane, yet are not
quite human. These people appear on the surface to be somewhat eccentric
members of society, yet their outward idiosyncrasies only hint at
how different they are from those around them.
Each
of us incarnates for a lifetime with a certain way of relating to
the physical world through the vehicle of our physical body. A vampire
is a person born with an extraordinary capacity to absorb, channel,
transform, and manipulate "pranic energy" or life force.
She also has a critical energy imbalance which reels wildly from
deficit to overload and back again. This capacity for handling energy
is a gift, but the constant imbalance of her own system is the cause
of the negative behavior patterns and characteristics which may
be notable about a vampiric person.
Real
vampires do not necessarily drink blood-in fact, most of them do
not. Blood-drinking and vampirism have been confused to the extent
that for the average person, a vampire is defined as something that
drinks blood (such as a "vampire bat"). But when we look
beyond casual assumptions to the details of common beliefs, we find
something quite different. Throughout both folklore and literature,
there is an understanding that vampires require energy or life force.
Many old folktales accept that vampires suck blood, yet never describe
this actually happening. The victims slowly decline and waste away,
and the survivors assume that some evil fiend is draining them of
blood. They know that the Bible says, "the blood is the life",
and anyone who was losing their life force must be losing blood.
Yet, in many instances the vampire's "attack" does not
even involve physical contact. In others, it is clearly sexual energy
which is exchanged.1
Fresh
blood is the highest known source of pranic energy (life force).2
Human beings have practiced blood-drinking for many reasons throughout
history, but drinking blood alone does not indicate that a person
is a vampire. Only real vampires can directly absorb the pranic
energy in fresh blood, and for this reason some real vampires are
attracted to blood and find different means of obtaining it.3 However,
it is a rare vampire who cannot absorb energy in much more subtle
ways. This is the mechanism that causes real vampires to inflict
harm on others and themselves if they fail to recognize what is
happening and do conscious work on transforming their inner natures.
Vampires are no more likely to be either malicious or spiritually
aware than the general population, but without awareness, they can
spend their lives making themselves and others unhappy, and will
continue to incarnate in this pattern until they take action to
change it.
There
are a number of external symptoms of vampirism, but it is important
to realize that some of them are found in ordinary human behavior.
Real vampires are identifiable partly because they have a majority
of the symptoms, not just one or two. But more significantly, real
vampires are distinguished by a certain quality to the energy. While
anyone reading a description of the symptoms and behavior patterns
might find a few that apply to people he knows, or even to himself,
real vampires have a way of standing out vividly to everyone who
interacts with them. There are few people who do not know at least
one vampire.
Physically,
vampires are usually "night people"" on a biochemical
level. They have inverted circadian rhythms, with body cycles such
as temperature peaks, menstrual onset, and the production of sleep
hormones in the brain occurring at the opposite time of day from
most people. They have difficulty adjusting to daytime schedules
and frequently work nights. They tend to be photosensitive, avoiding
sunlight, sunburning easily, and having excellent night vision.
Their vitality ranges widely, and they can be vigorous and active
one day, depressed and languorous the next.
They
frequently have digestive trouble. Even those with cast-iron stomachs
have many issues with food that are rooted in their constant hunger
for energy. Contrary to the image of the vampire as thin, many real
vampires are troubled by obesity because of a hunger that makes
them food addicts, and a system that is sluggish in processing physical
food. They are also sometimes troubled by other substance addictions
for the same reasons, but since their systems are tuned to pranic
energy more than to processing physical substance, they may not
be as sensitive to drugs and alcohol as an ordinary person would
be.
Emotionally
and physically, vampires are unpredictable, moody, temperamental
and overwhelming. The major distinguishing characteristic of real
vampires as opposed to ordinary people who share those qualities
is the vampire's intensity. Vampires are extremely intense people.
They are frequently given nicknames such as "the black hole."
When others talk about them (usually to complain about them), vampires
are often described by such terms as "needy," "attention-seeking,"
"grandstanding," "manipulative," "exhausting,"
"draining," "monopolizes the conversation,"
"jealous," "huge ego," and so on. A vampire's
emotions are deep, fervent, and powerful, and she usually displays
great psychic ability and has uncontrolled magickal and psychic
experiences. Vampires are also empaths, and while they remain unconscious
of their natures, they are frequently "psychic sponges"
who simply absorb vibrations from everywhere, with the expected
emotional instability resulting.
A "hungry"
vampire -- one whose energy level is imbalanced to the deficit side
-- becomes an involuntary psychic vortex, drawing all pranic energy
in the area towards her. When the energy does not flow in fast enough
-- and it is typical of vampires that the energy never flows fast
enough for them -- she will begin manifesting behavior patterns
to increase the amount of conscious attention she gets from others.
For this reason, some vampires develop a pattern of being aggressively
confrontational, or of constantly antagonizing people with whom
they have relationships. Nearly all vampires, whatever ploys they
use, have a talent for attracting (or distracting) the attention
of everyone present.
Once
a vampire overloads on energy, she reverses her behavior patterns.
She may become morose, silent, withdrawn and introverted. Some vampires
become maniacally cheerful when they are satiated, but even their
good moods seem to annoy others, and it is more typical for vampires
to be infamous as wet blankets. "Hungry" and "overload"
phases can occur within a few minutes or last for days at a time.
Vampires are commonly loners, in part because they feel so different
from those around them, but also because they have a need to control
the degree of contact they have with sources of energy.
Real
vampires are not the demonic fiends of Christianized folklore, but
as long as they refuse to accept their inner nature, their bad reputation
is not undeserved. Unconscious vampires have a tendency to reach
adulthood with less than the average level of social skill and general
finesse, and tend to be selfish and self-centered. The demands of
their own energy systems are so distracting to them that it is difficult
for them to pay attention to the needs of others. Their relationships
tend to be disasters. Different vampires develop different patterns
according to what works best for them in their life situation, but
several patterns are common. The "femme fatale" or "lady-killer"
vampire forms a continuous series of sexual connections with one
partner at a time, dropping each unfortunate lover as they become
too exhausted (or defensive) to support the vampire's energy needs.
Other vampires form a long-term relationship with a single person:
either another vampire whose energy cycle complements their own,
or a person who derives satisfaction from being a psychic servant
or martyr. A common pattern, especially in young adults, is to continuously
join social, religious, political and magickal groups and either
blow them apart or end up being thrown out. Vampires may go through
roommates, housing situations, magickal groups, jobs and lovers
like so much Kleenex.
Many
people find that they feel "creepy" or "weird"
around a vampire. This is usually due to the effects of one's own
life force being drawn towards the vampire's vortex. Most people
feel uncomfortable and distracted when their energy is pulled away
from themselves. In addition to this, a common result of such an
energy drain is for the aura to pull in tightly towards the body,
and this causes a prickling sensation on the skin -- the "creepy-crawlies."
It
is no more common for vampires to be psychopaths or killers than
it is for any random person on the street. However, a prolonged,
or very involved, relationship with a vampire can put a severe strain
on the emotional and psychic energy systems of an ordinary person.
Folklore suggests that victims of a vampire become vampires themselves.
In reality, people who have been seriously "drained" --
that is, have had their own energy pulled off balance into a deficit
-- also become psychic vortices which pull life force away from
other living things. However, they are never as powerful as a true
vampire, and unlike vampires, quickly recover and stabilize. True
vampires are born the way they are -- no one can be "turned
into a vampire." However, years of energy depletion can lead
to health problems ranging from depression and malaise to a suppressed
immune system and susceptibility to serious illnesses. Most people
will break off the relationship before it gets that far.
Many
vampires are attracted to magickal paths. In a magickal working
group, their ability to wreak havoc is increased because of the
psychic openness and trust that exist there. But there can be a
benefit, as well. Some vampires become aware of their true natures
and choose to undertake serious work to transform themselves. As
soon as they begin doing so, they become more acceptable working
partners and companions. Once in control of their capacity for handling
energy, they become extraordinary magicians and healers. Their ability
to hold the attention of others gives them the potential to be fine
leaders and teachers. Ultimately, the purpose of vampires is not
to plague the universe but to facilitate its healing. Vampirism
is the dark, or unfocused, side of a certain kind of psychic talent,
one which has been developing for many lifetimes. It is destructive
only when a vampire either refuses to face the truth about herself
and work with her abilities, or when she chooses to play out a sinister
role because of the illusion of power it gives her.
Because
of this, many of the vampire characteristics described above are
far less evident in the most powerful vampires, the ones who have
done considerable work on their inner selves. Many of these are
poised, pleasant, competent individuals, with great personal power.
They have come to terms with who and what they are, and no longer
exhibit the negative qualities associated with "psychic vampirism."
4 Unfortunately, unconscious vampires are far more common than evolved
ones, and it is these troubled souls who more usually appear in
magickal groups.
There
is no "generic advice" to give those who believe they
may be dealing with a real vampire. Those who are so inclined might
try to help a friend or fellow group member explore their inner
nature and come to terms with their destructive behaviors. Those
who feel victimized can choose to end the relationship. Each case
is different, and can only be judged by the individuals concerned.
But it is important for anyone involved in magickal or psychic work
to understand that vampires are a real phenomenon, and that, like
all perils, they should not be greeted with fear or anger. Nothing
is evil by nature -- only by choice. Terror of discovery (followed
by ridicule or rejection) inhibits the self-development of many
real vampires. When they reach out for friendship, they are often
reaching out for help.
A person
who believes she may be a real vampire herself has a long and difficult
process ahead of her. The most important step on her path is complete
self-awareness: of her relationships, patterns, energy levels, and
all other personal qualities. The most challenging work may often
be summarized in the simplest of terms. Knowledge, awareness, and
control are the lessons real vampires must learn in order to harness
their abilities. If real vampires are not the immortals of fiction,
they can at least be confident of one thing: for better or worse,
they will keep the qualities they develop for many lives to come.